freakazoid.

madifierce:

I have a really hard time opening up to people.

No, not because I have trust issues. No, not because I’m afraid of being vulnerable. I have a hard time because there are things about myself that I am ashamed of. Mistakes that I can’t go back and fix.

The people that try to get me to open up usually end up being people I care about. It takes everything I’ve got to get myself to open up about everything. See, what is the purpose of people opening up to a certain someone? Sure, to get to know eachother, but it’s something deeper than that. Somewhere in your heart, as you’re about to open up the box that holds your past, you hope that the person you’re about to show it to will accept you in a way that most wouldn’t.

That’s why it’s so difficult for me. You expect someone to believe in you when nobody else does, you hope for someone to take your side when everyone made you feel like you only had yourself.

Trust in yourself. Yes, that’s good, but what if it isn’t enough? To find someone else to trust in you, now that’s something. But I suppose that it’s a lot easier to understand the truth about yourself than to get someone to understand you as well.